I've been in the worst mood since the failed adoption went down. I can't help but think of what could have been a sweet sweet little girl that I had a secret name that I only shared with my oldest daughter Jenna Kinsley Grace sounds so pretty. Now I feel like I'm in mourning but there won't be any closure for me. I lost our baby girl at the hands of my parents. You see I haven't had a relationship with my parents for 12 years. My brother I never got along with he is just a terrible person. He is now serving 17 to 40 years for molesting his daughter for four years straight. My parents still hold him high on that pedal stool. I do not understand at all but when my parents found out I wanted to adopt my nieces baby they had my brother talk on the phone with him and the three of them talked her into keeping the baby.... my niece is 17 and a drug addict and has done things that I can't even bring myself to say. My parents told her they will help her raise the baby. My mom doesn't wake up until three in the afternoon she takes Tylenol cold and drinks what a roll model I know! everyday she pops them and my dads no better has shots of tequila everyday and they argue everyday since I was old enough they played my brother against me since I was young. Oh my niece's baby will have the best life with them OK right!! Sounds crazy I know, but it is what it is and it really really sucks. my kids were excited she let them touch her belly and ask questions and she would always say this is your mama's baby not mine. We are working on a new blog to promote a private but open adoption. well feeling blah.
thanks so much crazy mama
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