~~ Feeling Lost~~

Did you ever have that feeling that your lost or that you may have lost something or someone? I have eight beautiful children and I'm so thankful to god for allowing me to be their mama but, I just feel there is someone missing from our family my husband said he wouldn't mind having one more. I tied my tubes oh my gosh that being said it hurts my heart makes me sick to my stomach. My husband isn't the most easiest one to agree with certain things i have a wonderful friend who is willing to carry our baby, but my husband said no way its just not natural to him. So I thought adoption would be the way to go..... so wish me luck on trying to convince my husband that this may be the way to go. He is an awesome daddy and husband. well that's all for now.