FUNK!!!!!!!!!!! :(

I have been in a very nasty funk!!! There I said it it's out there! Have you ever felt that you are the only one in the world with problem's? My husband is a good provider and father he really is it's just when it comes to helping with correcting the kids he is just not behind me on punishment's. We have talked about more children which now I'm not so sure I will be having anymore. I have a great friend who is willing to carry a baby for me at no extra cost to us which is great, but my husband wants to do it the old fashion way. I'm not so sure I want to carry another baby or even have another one, I mean no help now with eight, why would I go and have another one!!!! It hurts that the kids are getting so big they are great kids they just sometimes pay me no mind. The kids will soon be done with school and that I can not wait for no more running around.... we can just enjoy the summer days filled with lots and lots of ice cream trips and fun. I plan on fixing my funky thoughts to more positive thoughts so please send me your happy vibes I could really use them now... no really now!!!!! lol